the hardest part.

Hi, kittens. I don't really know how to start this post. I haven't been around very much for the past few weeks and I apologize for being ominous. I try not to make things too heavy here at The 60/40, but somethings are just tough to say.

I recently had to say goodbye to the love of my life and best friend, my husband. He's left for a deployment with his job in the military and for the next year or so I will wake up without him and go to sleep at night wishing he was here. Saying 'goodbye' to him for this long is the hardest thing I have ever done and everyday I worry about him. 

Despite the general suckiness of this situation, I'm doing ok. It's a terribly tough thing to go through, but I'm the kind of gal who looks for the silver lining and I plan on taking this year to do everything I've wanted to do and more. I hope that you'll embrace getting to know me a little better; I felt it was important to share this with you because this is my place of solace. I won't be a debbie downer all the time, but you're going to get to know 'the real Roxanne' and there will be raw emotion, hard stuff, and totally off the wall fun stuff. 

Big things are going to happen and I look forward to spending this year working hard towards goals I've had in my heart for a really long time. Being a bit of an introvert will help me get through this deployment by recharging and focusing on goals I have for my life. I'll still miss him every day and yes, I'm surrounding myself with friends and family, but I see this as a good time too focus and plainly put, get shit done. 

I really hope that you'll enjoy the adventures to come with me; the good times and tough times. Waking up every morning, blogging, sharing with you little bits of my life and reading your comments means so very much to me. I'm bursting on the inside to share with you the things that have happened over the past few weeks and the amazing things to come. You should seriously see my 'to do' list, it's a mile long!

I've got plenty of fun posts this week, a hilarious gift from a dear friend, and lovely summer pictures. I want to encourage you all to still check out The 60/40 Pop-Up Summer Shop, there's plenty of pretty things left. If you're waiting on a package from me, it's in the mail! 

Thanks for listening friends, I promise I'll have a post this evening that is super fun! xo always, Roxanne


Erin said...

I teared up when I read this post. I can't imagine how hard it is for you. I love that you are focusing on the positive. I am here if you ever need anything!

mommo said...

Thats my girl always looking for the sunshine. Josh and you are in my prayers daily and butterflies will surround him on this long journey. And to you good morning sunshine rise and shine. Love Mommo

vintagewithatwist said...

I can't wait to see all the fun and amazing things you do this year! I bet your to-do list has some great things on it!
wish I was in CO so we could go thrifting like every day :)

Erin Wallace said...

Roxanne - I'm sorry that you're on your own now. I can't imagine how difficult it would be to be a military spouse. I wish I lived nearer (actually, I wish I just lived in Colorado Springs! So beautiful there!) and I'd come over and give you some company. I'll be praying for you and you'll be in my thoughts.

xo Erin

diane said...

oh, roxanne.

this hurts my heart.

thank you for your honesty.

you amaze me.

i am honored to be following your journey.

you bring such a beautiful mix of lovely art and real life to this blog.

i'll be right here with you in the bloggy world to support, listen, and share through this next chapter.

if you ever feel like taking a trip to san francisco, let me know.

thoughts and love winging your way...


Tara S. said...

ugh, deployment. I remember that worry, and everyday feeling of emptiness. I hope that this deployment goes fast for you. When you start to stress about it, or it gets overwhelming take a long hot bath and relax. i love you , and i miss chatting with you. We have to catch up soon.

divamcknitster said...

hi roxanne, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your hubby as he deploys.

RachelDenbow said...

Girl, Wishing you all the strength, steadfastness, and happy distractions in the world. This separation stuff is hard.

Thank you for all of your encouragement this month as I dealt with it for the first time. It meant a lot!

Louise said...

Just wanted to tell you that I commend both you and Josh for being able to be away from each other so long and still be sane. I can only imagine the strength it must take for you two to say goodbye to one another.

Girl, you are one of the most fun loving, strength having young ladies ever. If anyone can get through this deployment it is you. I am hear if you need anything!

Please keep the posts coming, I really love reading them and giggling at all the fun comments that you make :)

Rebecca said...

i'm clearly catching up on my favorite blogs from way long ago...i apologize for my tardiness in commenting on this post, but i wanted to let you know that military wives are one of the strongest group of women i've ever had the pleasure to meet. you are such an amazing girl and know without a doubt if anyone can make it through the next year, it's you. i look forward to reading how you take advantage of the time to "get shit done" as you said...haha. you are so funny and crafty and enjoyable to keep up with...i just wish we did it more often via email or IM, rather than by blog reading. keep it up with this amazing blog and sharing your creative mind and spirit with all of us. you don't know how many people you make laugh and smile on a daily basis.

i'm thinking of you always! :)